And yet I've lived this broken life of mine.
  It's better anyway 
    than 
not at all...

 Ironically 
I have been always envied -
  for everything
and now...
 I actually do not mind...

This envy of the insightless people
 has come to show me -
  I did possess
  what they could not imagine,
could never ever have...

So I am grateful...

But that's not what
  I really want to say...



July 19, 2023