Слободкина Ольга
Pain and desire

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  • © Copyright Слободкина Ольга (slowboat@mail.ru)
  • Обновлено: 11/03/2009. 1k. Статистика.
  • Стихотворение: Поэзия

  •                                To B.D.
    
    
    Oh, he can't share my Spirits -
    So, let it be.
    Nor can he share my solitude -
    So, let it be.
    Neither - my mystery...
    So, let it be.
    
    But there it was - his pain,
      his passion...
    
    So, 
     let him not remember me,
      let him not love me,
       think about me anymore.
    
    But there is was -
      his open heart,
       his open bleeding heart
        of memory,
         of recollections...
    
    He did betray himself
     giving his love away,
      letting it show,
       letting his feelings flow -
        pain and desire.
    
    For that's the only way 
     that he can love.
    
    Oh, did he love me?
    Did he really love?
    
    I never thought he did.
    But now that twenty years have passed
      I see - he did.
    
    And all the pain,
     and all the loss
      blowed up in him.
       
    
    His open heart -
     pain and desire.
    
    No irony, 
     no cynicism -
      no kidding.
    
    It was so much unlike him,
     but I could see that.
    
    And just for that
     I'll keep him in my heart
      until the end:
    
    No irony,
     no cynicism -
      no kidding...
    
    But just an open bleeding heart -
     pain and desire.
    
    
    Yes, twenty years had passed
     before I realized
      how much he loved me,
       although he never showed me that
        back then...
    
    
    
    
    Sept. 12, 2004

  • © Copyright Слободкина Ольга (slowboat@mail.ru)
  • Обновлено: 11/03/2009. 1k. Статистика.
  • Стихотворение: Поэзия

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